I Fall in Love One Hundred Times a Day
Thursday, October 18, 2018
So, I have decided to start this again.
I haven't had a black eye in a while. Seems like I might be overdue. Let's do this.
Friday, April 24, 2015
Thursday, April 9, 2015
Garrett General
Saturday, April 4, 2015
The Truth of the Matter
The predictability of life had hit him hard in the last decade. Sometimes he would sit, and watch people standing in lines at food trailers. The cloudy days outside, during the last summer, seemed to accurately mirror the weather in his brain. Not a sad, rainy cloud cover, but a shade and comfort that allowed him to sit and confirm his feelings about human behavior. Counting down from 3....2...1, he could single out the person that would switch from the pressure from one foot to the other. This is not a story of boredom that would normally come with that ability. This is the story of his willingness to resolve himself to the unpredictability of something that he was even more highly skilled at predicting.
"Watch yourself", he would whisper into his own ear. Doing this became instinctual to him. Slightly whispering out loud. These things that he should say only in his mind, had become a habit that was ongoing since elementary school. Hoping no one could hear these whisperings, followed this same age long process.
"Why?", she asked, in the same whispered tone. Leaning in slightly, as if they had just shared a secret. Yet, there was no other occupants of their picnic table. In the second, literally second, between that question, and his response, he pictured this in his mind.
The way she hugged him as she left that evening, didn't contain any different inflection of body language, than any other friend that had left his side after a night of drinking any loud 'talking". He tried to do the same. Tried to hug her just as ordinary, and plain, as he knew she was hugging him. Yet, her hair always seemed to catch him just right. Directly in his open mouth. Softly blowing air through his slightly open lips would normally cause the hair to leave, but her long fragrant locks defied physics. Which, he noticed, is the same thing his heart defied everytime she held him close. If even for that second.
"Oh, nothing. Just trying to remember something", he dismissively said. She knew this wasn't the truth because he could never remember anything. With a mind that could recite the air velocity, and speed, of a penny falling from the Empire State Building. He couldn't even remember the color of the couch sitting the living room, of her house, that they literally just left thirty minutes ago.
This was them. Sitting on this bench. Watching a slow moving crowd. Dreaming of what was happening, currently.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
Discovering Destructive Reciprocation.
"My dad is gonna be mad when he catches you", she screamed at me from the other side of the dull, metal hallway.
"WHAT!!!!", I screamed back. I've always been good at pretending I don't hear people. I still am.
"My daddy is gonna call the cops on you", she's still screaming while death marching in my direction. This cute blond girl is B-lining towards me, and she looks like she means business. I start thinking about running, but then I realize, she is all by herself. "My daddy owns this place and he's been wondering where all these broken bottles are coming from. You're in deep shit." She is now, literally, nose to nose with me.
"Fuck your old man. Where the fuck is he, by the way? I don't see him. I bet I can out run his old ass, and you", if you were wondering, my cussing ratio has not diminished since I was very young.
"Well", she starts to stammer. "Well, he's at home."
"Good. leave me alone.", I pick up my bottles and walk off. Obviously my knack for drama hasn't diminished either.
"Why do you throw bottles all over the place?", now she's following me. Great.
"I don't know. I just like the sound of glass breaking, I guess", I'm starting to realize how awkward my speech patterns were around that time. I don't think anything I said in my youth sounded smooth.
"That's kinda cool. Can I try?"
"Absolutely", I'm always willing to corrupt. She runs up next to me, and before I can utter one word of protest, she has snatched a bottle from the holder. She let's it fly. We waited, held breath, and then that beautiful sound. The smash of glass caused her to jump up and down, and shriek like an excited Japanese girl. So, the next hour was spent throwing bottles, kicking in walls, and making her father very proud.
"So, you think you can run fast?" Obviously property destruction hasn't made her completely forget how we met. "I mean, you did say that you could outrun me and my dad."
"I can. I'm real fast", am I the only one that is recollecting me as Forrest Gump.
"Let's play a game", now she has my attention."I'll give you a fifteen second head start. You start running. If I catch you, you have to do anything I want." To this day I am a sucker for a good bet.
"Let's do this. You will never catch me", and the game was off. It took my twelve year old brain about thirty seconds for things to register.